Hope Deferred by Becca Drumheller
“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.” Proverbs 13:12
My last blog I was shared about the idea of setting up stones of remembrance in our lives. It’s been on my heart as of late to look back and see all the good the Lord has done in me, through me and for me. For my husband and I it has been a (long) season of waiting, longing, wondering; it’s been a season of the unknown. We sold our house back in October and have been living with his parents ever since. The Lord has blessed me with remarkable, loving in-laws who always made us feel welcome but in the back of our minds we still know it’s not our home. The hope of finding our forever home has been deferred, after close to five months, fifteen offers, and countless showings how can I stay hopeful?
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
The truth is we all have something we’re waiting or hoping for and sacrificing those hopes to God may seem easy but can prove to be a huge challenge. I can lay my requests before the Lord and in the moment I know I am surrendering them, but the challenge comes when I want to pick them up again. It wasn’t long ago that my greatest want was to be married and have my own family, and I felt like I had been waiting on the Lord far longer than necessary. I would present that request to the Lord and wait for His answer which always seemed to be “not yet”. It wasn’t until I was going fully after God and stepping out in faith going to a program to further my ministerial training that He gave me my heart’s desire. Now, just shy of three years later Scott and I are anticipating the birth of our first child, and the Lord completely surpassed my expectations. As Christians we say it all the time, but God’s timing really is perfect, He can fill us with joy and peace as we trust Him and His plans.
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1
When I was nineteen I had the opportunity to go to South Africa on a missions trip with the church I grew up in. I never felt the call to go to Africa, of all of the traveling I had planned I never pictured South Africa as my first international destination. I didn’t feel God’s overwhelming calling to go either, but as the deadline approached to sign up, I decided it was a place to start. I was in a place of waiting for the Lord to reveal His master plan for my life and I wanted to show Him I was willing to take the first step and go. Looking back now I wouldn’t trade that choice for anything in the world, while I know at this moment in time I’m not called to the mission field I was taught so much about loving people, ministry and letting God lead. God used my willingness to go to South Africa to open up a door for a trip to Budapest, Hungary the capital of a small country in eastern Europe. When I agreed to go to Africa I had no idea that it would lead to God’s plan to send me to Hungary. He took my willingness to go beyond my comfort zone and directly used it to give me my heart’s desire. (A side note; my dad’s family immigrated from Hungary to escape World War Two and it was number one on my places to travel to.)
“Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.” Psalm 31:24
These are two of the biggest areas I can look back and see the Lord working in my life. They serve as reminders that He is in control; He knows what He’s doing and His plans are far above anything that I could ever think of for myself. Yes, this season of waiting and hoping is difficult, I’m tempted to take back everything I give to God and try and control the situation but that only adds to stress. What area are you waiting for God to move in? It could be a job, healing, salvation for a loved one, the list goes on but rest assured God is bigger than anything we are facing. Our hope may be deferred for a time but be encouraged that the final battle has been won. A house is temporary and fleeting, it will fall to pieces one day and our residence will be in Heaven. What we hope for here on earth is important and God wants to hear our requests, but it pales in comparison to all the He has in store for eternity. Easter is around the corner and the message of hope is clear, Jesus over came the grave, He sits at the right hand of the Father and He is preparing a place for us with Him.
Nothing I’ve shared is earth shattering or brand new, but it’s a part of my testimony and has brought me to the place where I have confidence to hope for all that the Lord has. I hope you’re encouraged as well and can look back through your life and see all that the Lord has done and joyfully present all that you are still longing for because He is good and lavishes us with His love.